Back from the dead

It’s funny when you find out later that the reason you thought you were doing something was not at all why you did what you did.

I stopped writing. I stopped sharing. Part of the reason was that a serious portion of the people I went to school with were dreaming of becoming social media influencers leveraging their time at Bethel to somehow gain importance and authority. Everybody wants a voice. Everybody wants their voice to matter. Those are normal drives but when my social media became 90% people shouting from their imaginary rooftops how to truly live properly or how to finally be happy or what Jesus was really thinking, I just… couldn’t. I didn’t want to be another facebook status preacher. No offense, friends.

When we finished 3rd year BSSM in the spring of 2018 we were broke. We came back to Portland and both got bar tending jobs and started working. Then, in the blink of an eye a year had gone by and we had some money in the bank and we were both feeling the impending truth. This is not what our lives, our life, is for. It’s as cliche as they come but we were made for more. Maybe a better way of saying it is, we have more within us to give than extraordinarily yummy cocktail recipes.

When we were still in Redding I did actually ask Holy Spirit what I’d be doing for my job after school was over and I heard clear as day, “Online Content Creation”. When we got to Portland with nothing in the bank that seemed like an impossible pursuit. How do I make that my job? I guess I still don’t fully know how to make that my job but the big news is that the Barkman’s are making power moves.

We quit my restaurant job to push in the direction of the word of the Lord and our true purpose.

I thought the reason I stopped writing was that there was really no reason that I should be telling people how to live or how to approach God or whatever. I still believe that. There is no reason to tell people how to live. But the real reason I stopped writing and sharing was that I was afraid of being misunderstood and actually, there’s every reason for me to look into the Heaven realm and share what I see.

So, in a nutshell, I was in the belly of a fish for a while slinging drinks and now I’ve been barfed up onto the shores of a new computer with sweet sweet recording software, a bunch of songs in the works, a belly full of fire and the favor of the Lord on my life and I’m ready to run.

So, here’s the official written announcement: I’ll be dividing my time between video content, written content and musical content for the rest of forever.

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